waiting

is sucks...
argh.......

one day feels like a year,
I can't sleep... *boong deng*
this is really a test for my patience

*elus elus dada*
sabar... sabar.... sabar.....
semua akan indah pada waktunya

can't wait to hit the 'send' button

the shoes tragedy

a month ago, I did a little shopping with my mom in a recommended shoes store @ Mangga Dua
I bought three pairs of shoes (arround 100k each), one of them is high heels shoes.
for the high heels, the design's so chick, but so damn uncomfort, it's killing my feet really.
but, the fashion come first right? hehehehe

so what happen when you wore pair of high heel uncomfort but chick shoes and run through the storm which happened yesterday?

it's the tragedy....

due to this important appointment at 2 p.m.
I cross the storm by running with this cheap-chick-but-uncomfort shoes
but then..... the wind has proven it self that it's more powerfull
I fell off
I felt something wrong with my feet
but as samantha said in sex and the city
"I have a broken toe, not a broken spirit"
I kept walking and managed my self to be at the appointment on time and rather dry
*thanks to hand-dryer in the toilet*

after the meeting, I get off of my chair..
but then, I can't stand...
my left feet lost its power to support the entire body
after a while....
I managed to have my strength back...
I can stand, walk out the room savely
but I still feel the pain till now

morale of the story :
I still not that heavy hehehehhe
the wind still can sweep me
as it did to other big 'baliho' huahahahhaha

the secret

pretty happening subject isn't it
the secret, law of attraction, quantum ikhlas, and stuff like that

well, I'm not a fan of motivational book,
I'd prefer a popular novel, or dvd for killing times
I have a friend who is a die hard fan of this theory
"It's the power of positive thinking and positive feeling" she said

the book said (based on my die-hard-fan friend's lecture)
if we think and feel positive, the universe will respond back positively
(there's a physic explanation about this in the book),
then somehow, what you think become real, it said "thoughts become things"

I'm a positive thingking person
(sometimes too positive, that I found too bad sometimes)
but I don't buy that theory,
how it explains for something that come when you least expected

I somehow beleive it's the opposite
god already has it written, the calculation of time when you're gonna do something, meet someone, win a lottery, and so on, and so forth
then the universe give you some kind of reminiscent,
which can make you feel like you want to do something,
you want to meet a person
or.. you feel positvely lucky

another friend who beleive that there's no luck in her life,
deny the theory of positive thinking
she said, "kayaknya semua yang gwe dapet hasil tindakan gwe, atau karena perbuatan orang lain, bukan karena gwe berharap trus puff ada gitu didepan mata gwe"
"misal ya, gwe kangen sama ruly, trus gwe cerita ke elo, trus besok malemnya dia telp gwe"
"tadinya gwe mikir, gwe punya ikatan sama dia, ehhhh taunya lo buzz dia di YM bilang gwe kangen"
"see? ga ada itu universe tetek bengek, semua pasti ada sebab musababnya"

I

am bored to death...

plus,
- the situation's not good,
- It's not healthy to maintain these two faces of mine

jess

mariano...
is anyone know him?
I fell madly in love with this character

rada kesel juga pas nonton last season gilmore, rory end up single
(maap yg blom nonton, dan jadi spoiler)
padahal gwe selalu percaya dia meant to be with jess

last night, I watched heroes season 1
*iyaa tau, basi banget baru nonton heroes hari ginih*
*itu juga hasil komporan temen gwe, akhirnya nonton*

baru nonton ep.1, liat milo, kangen gwe sama jess
dan gwe rerun season gilmore yang ada jess-nya
huaaaa cinta lama ku bersemi kembali huehehhehehe

gilaaa ya si jess ituh, bener" menyihirrr kuh
- rebel
- sangat pintar
- bisa nulis novel
- kutu buku tapi keren
- cuek tingkat tinggi
- sinis, tapi keliatan banget tulusnya

my favourite, pas rory akhirnya consider mo ke Yale.
trus ada conv ginih kira"
jess : itu kan jaraknya sekitar xx km
rory : hah? ko tau?
jess : iya gw liat di inet
rory : hah? you look it up?
jess : lagi browsing iseng
rory : you look it up
jess *diem*
rory : you look it up
rory : you look it up
rory : you look it up for me *kegirangan*

I really really like the scene

ah, sama satu lagih,

jess blom jadi sama rory
rory lagi ikut dance marathon,
jess dateng nonton bawa ce-nya, dan ngeliatin rory terus
pas rory ambil sandwich, ketemu jess sama ce nya
dan ada conv. kira"
rory : lo gak ada kerjaan ya, orang dateng ke sini buat ikut lomba, bukan buat nonton
jess : terserah gwe, gwe mo ikut partisipasi sama event kota
rory : trus lo ngapain, ngeliatin gwe gitu, lo pikir gwe bakal terganggu
jess : nah lo ngapain ngeliatin gwe, padahal lagi dansa sama pacar lo
rory : gwe ga ngeliatin lo
jess : lha, dari mana lo tau gwe ngeliatin elo
rory : iyaa itu ga sengaja pandangan gwe jatuh ke elo, tapi gwe biasanya ngeliat ke dean kok
jess : oh, jadi lo gak bisa ngontrol untuk ngeliat gwe, tapi lo harus ngontrol diri lo untuk ngeliat cowok lo

huahahahahhahaha, pinter ngeles banget

my wish

dear dearest god,

please give me such unbelivable anticipated present this month dear dearest god.
you gave me unbelivable present last year, that it almost drives me crazy
please dearest god, let it be the best, let it be the best, let it be for the very best
it will smoothen my way...

amin ;)

~arghhh
~justCan'tGetItOutOfMyMind