is love mandatory?

ppl at my age (teen - heheheheh) mostlikely will talk about marriage, love, life and such, now I'll go with the flow (hehehe me blaming the flow)

I have a close circle friend who is a picky type, well, he get all the quality to be picky
so I said, maybe you just hasn't found the one who clicked

with analogy
misalkan criteria nya bentuk kotak, dan kl ada calon akan dimasukin ke kotak itu...
jadi selama ini kalo ada cewek yang bentuknya segitiga, segilima masuk ke kotak, maka akan ga cocok ato memaksa cewek itu ngikutin bentuk kotak
tp kalo ketemu the one, dan bentuknya bunder
instead of maksa si bunder jadi kotak, kotak-nya akan beradaptasi menjadi bunder...

but he insisted, it's not how it works with him,

then he sent us an article as a judgment of his belief, I skimmed through it
point is : for marriage, love actually is optional. what mandatory are same visions, same values, and such else
love will come if you respect on same things, value same things, and aim the same goal
the article is making any sense, since they're putting the divorce rate, etc

then today, I received this article from... I forgot... a well-known EQ trainer
one of the motivational message related to love, sound like:
jika mencintai maka anda tidak akan berharap apa2 in return, kalau ada berharap sesuatu in return, maka itu bukan cinta, itu bisnis...
the lines are making sense as well

para pemikir2 bijaksana, motivational instruktur, psikolog terkenal,
somehow mereka suka mengeluarkan dua pernyataan tentang suatu hal yang bertentangan...
sooo I dont really beleive in those motivational teacher, they tell us something we already knew, in a different way of speech
in my point of view, both are good and wise, it just depend on what you believe as a truth, just like religion :p

as for mine, I do believe love is extra mandatory in marriage, I'm the type who believe : no love means no orgasm :p

I really really enjoy it

risking that this blog will be sooo boring,
yet, I still post my current addiction

I NEVER LET YOU GO - third eye blind

there's every good reason
for letting you go
she's sneaky and smoke out
it's starting to show

I never let you go
I never let you go
I never let you go
I never let you
turn around our back on each other
that's a good idea, break promis to your mother
turn around your back on each other

you said that I change
maybe I did
even if I change
what's wrong with it

I never let you go
I never let you go
I never let you go
I never let you
turn arounf our back on each other
it's a good idea
break a promise to your mother

Now our friends are gone and gone
Now the time moves on moves on
Now I know it's wrong it's wrong
it's wrong it's wrong

if there's a reason
It's lost on me
maybe we'll be friends
I guess we'll see

rehab

dalam rangka menyambut 14 nov 08

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
When you left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame


And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease


Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're loveswept
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
Than I was using you
But now that I know
It's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta wean myself off of you

english

I'm at my new post currently,
Yess... I know, sort of quick, jumping from one place to another...

In the current post, in a bank, which is a subsidiary of bigger bank in most southern continent
I was posted in a dept which is multicultural, I get to work hand in hand with foreigner as team mate
After days... I found out, that all local staff happened to be mastery overseas graduated,
I'm feeling little...

But then, they all thought I am overseas graduated as well.... assuming from my fluency in English, and my bright brain *huahahahaha show off*

here's the conv.
A : lo dulu kuliah dimana? inggris lo bagus
Me : ha? gwe kuliah di UI kok
A : S1-nya?
Me : ha? ya itu S1, gwe blom S2, makanya aga minder ini sama kalian, barang lokal nih, S1 pulak
A : ooo trus bahasa inggrisnya dapet darimana?
Me : (at first, I really thought of taking all the credits to my self, but I ended up saying)
ohhhh, ya les gitu, gwe masih les kok sekarang ... bla bla cerita tempat les
(yess, I share the credits to wall street)

After she left, I really thought...
Do most people underestimate the english fluency of local graduated??
I do know some friend's english which is really killing without even having to take any advance english course or spending sometime overseas
We do have dvd player, internet access and mp3 player!!!
We don't need to spend a fortune just to make our tongue and ear used to that global language

me reactivating

the expected is what makes your life steady
the unexpected will change your life

taken from grey's anatomy
so... true

tribute to a friend who will soon to be leaving the freakin J town
huaaaaa mo ikutttttttt

absent minded

a conv between me and friend who just got back from spore

F (friend) : (eagerly telling story) bla bla bla
M (me) : (put pay attention face, but my mind out of nowhere)
F : eh di singapore mo ada kasino
M : (pas banget dengerin) hah?? bukannya udah meninggal? emang masih laku?
F : hah? HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA casino gila! yang buat maen judi
M : hooo HUAHHHAHAHHAHAHA

It's weird, me not paying attention become laughter for us, not make other party offended
need customize info to apply it at clients

eniwei, the blog will be absent for a very long long time
cao

shattered

all the things that seemed once to be
so important to me
seem so trivial now
that I can see

move over! move over!
there's climax coming my way